Sunday, November 22, 2009

Ted Bundy

Several years ago, I became fascinated with serial killer Theodore Robert Bundy. I read a plethora of books and developed somewhat of a reluctant affinity for him. Partly because I felt he wasn't a typical empty vessel of hate and destruction. Studying his biographical information, testimonies from friends and family, and pictures of him gave me the sense that he didn't come into the world destined to hurt and kill.

It's interesting. His longtime girlfriend, Liz Kendall (a pseudonym), wrote a book about her time with Bundy. "The Phantom Prince" is out of print and semi-rare, but not impossible to get a hold of and I did. It's a hard situation to interpret because it's from Liz's perspective, and she was undoubtedly very emotionally weak and sensitive. She was insecure and needy, not to mention an alcoholic. Still, it's an eye-opening study of someone (Ted) trying to function, DESPERATE to build normal relationships, and battling horrible demons. Literally, I think he was beset with demons.

Ted really seemed to want to be normal. Not only did he want to be normal, to the point of CRAVING it for its own sake, but he possessed good qualities. Ted had a great sense of humor, he was well-mannered, he doted on friends and family, he was intelligent. He once saved a toddler from drowning and Liz recounted that he ran a purse snatcher down (funny, considering what a thief he was from such a young age). He seemed to be a human being, like any one of us, who possessed a profound weakness in his soul, one which was able to be manipulated by adversarial forces. With each woman he murdered, he lost more and more of himself. Eventually there was very little of his spiritual -I- left in him.

Study pics of younger Ted and compare them with pictures of him after he'd murdered so many people. There is little left of who he was in his blue eyes, which grew black when he was angry, and he emanates spiritual weakness.

A wicked mythology sprung up around Ted and it is so surreal to me, so crazy that he has become such a dark figure in American culture. Understandable that he HAS, but still strange. I guess I've read so much about him and intuned so much of his humanity that I am bewildered by the films depicting him, the books, the hatred people have for him, and all the years that have passed. I was 2 years old when he was executed via the electric chair. I was but a twinkle in my father's eye when he brutalized and murdered women and little girls. But he had a life full of experiences, of people who adored and liked him, of water rafting in Washington, of buying kittens and rabbits for Liz's daughter, of drinking his favorite beer and working as a suicide hotline operator. It is difficult for me to reconcile the good with the bad, the life which was full of light and promise, with the convicted murderer who starved himself so he could slip out of his cell and gimp into the Colorado mountains to hide.

I am not a groupie. I harbor no perverse delight for Ted Bundy, nor do I think serial killers are "cool." But I will not say that redemption is impossible for those who possess even a glimmer of light or good intention in their spirits. I think it would be a grand act of mercy for everyone to put good thoughts out to Ted and other people like him (as in, not being an empty, hateful shell).

I have done this, tried to reach out to him, and had a very strange dream a few years ago. I was in the lobby of a big hotel and there was Ted, surrounded by girls who looked so much like his victims. They were laughing and happy and doting on him, and he was doing the same. He turned, saw me, came forward, and hugged me. He then kissed me on the cheek.


The following photos have been taken from Serial Killer Central. The one of Ted with his daughter is especially striking and very rare.









17 comments:

  1. These are nice thoughts.

    I was seven when Ted was executed, and ten when I came across a picture of him in one of those old Time-Life true crime glossy books. I can't explain why or what clicked on in me, but all these years later he still fascinates me and has actually informed my life's passion - I'm starting graduate school next fall studying forensic psychology.

    There's definitely something about that guy.

    :o)

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  2. i agree. there is something about him.. and yea I wanted to take up Psychology but some people didn't agree.

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  3. I've read the Stranger Beside Me by Ann Rule.. and for weeks I've been paranoid. I can't climb down to use the bathroom at night.. stuff like that.

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  4. I understand the "good"!traits he exhibited and his longing to change the bad, and I also definitely believe he was possessed by demons. But he never apologized. He alone decided to keep doing his horrible acts. He didn't turn himself in or try to get help. Redemption is possible for those who exhibit a glimmer of hope. But ted blew out that glimmer and now he's dead. There is no more redemption for him and no mercy. And for the sake of the hundreds of victims he brutally tortured in unimaginable, unspeakable ways-- I think it is outright SICK to think of him in any kind of positive light. Just disgusting.

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    1. That's right Sarah. Completely agree with you.

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    2. Exactly Sara! So this blogger thinks that since he bought cute lil kittens and bunnies for his step daughter, and saved a toddler from drowning some how gives a glimmer of hope for redemption? Those sliver of positive actions wil NEVER out weigh what he did to his victims!! & what is the interpetation of the dream? that he's basking in the afterlife with his victims happily ever after?! This person needs to awaken to the fact that once you've crossed over to brutally murdering multiple victims, you are beyond hope and redemption, Only God himself has the power to grant this! There is clearly a disconnection in this Blogger's brain. I understand trying to find good in humanity in all but this person is gonna try to find good in a psychotic person and end up getting brutally raped or even worse!

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    3. So a serial killer is beyond hope and redemption BUT WAIT, God can save him so he's not beyond hope and redemption, right?

      And the blogger is going to try to find good in a psychotic person. You understand that psychotic people are mentally ill and not evil, right? That many people can have psychotic episodes, even some of the most clearly honorable and ethical people?

      Here's a suggestion. If you are going to make definitive statements about evil, redemption and what is actually going to happen to the blogger (I assume you are not psychic) could you try to have at least internal consistency in your poorly informed comments?

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  5. He was a good looking guy, that bashed women's brains in and then cut off their heads, washed their hair, and put makeup on their eyes. That is all.

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    1. Absalom - That's not all. He had sex with their dead bodies until decomposition prevented him from further violating their dead bodies! That is the height of sickness and demon possession. The average person gets scared of a dead body. But to think of sexual intimacy of a dead body and to actually carry it out is definitely not human. It is easier to read about and visualise on paper - but in reality, do you know how badly an untreated human corpse smells? The level of decomposition Ted Bundy handled was such that will make a normal person wretch involuntarily! How can anyone human have sex with or in such potent, repugnant decomposed smells?

      Ted Bundly had become demon possessed to the point that his humanity was almost completely effaced! And this increased with time and with each crime. In having sex with these dead people, he became one with the dead and less and less with humanity.

      Remember the episodes where he would transform into a completely different person with a completely different look and voice? Even people very close to him would not recognise him! An occasion was in the dusk with his favourite Aunt at a train station. The poor woman never recovered from that demonic manifestation! She stated that from that day, she became terrified of him. Who wouldn't be, watching your beloved nephew transform right before your very own eyes? He was pure evil who gave himself over to be used by evil forces.

      Peace to those ladies and those families that he destroyed.

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    2. Demon possession? We really have people in this country who explain sociopathic behavior and sexual compulsions and disorders as "demon possession." Good grief. No wonder we have trouble developing a coherent criminal justice system or science education in our schools.

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  6. I'd take into consideration the ability for the human psyche to manifest such a dream on its own potential; this is far more likely than having been "reached out to" by Ted, himself, in an otherworldly manner (though I'm surely not supposing that is impossible.)

    Concur with some of the above comments- He did commit incalculably horrific atrocities in his day & that should be the focal point of anyone taking into consideration the kind of heart he had beating in him.

    I often hear "...So sorry they treated you that way- I know they're a good person, I swear they are..."

    "Good people" have to actually show up for that potential in order for it to be true, i.e., if you're a "good" person, you must behave as a "good" person; otherwise, the shoes you wear each day are the only ones that fit.

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  7. Understanding that a psychopath possesses no 'conscience', no 'empathy', is completely devoid of any true 'insight' to human emotion, is 'fearless'-having a basic insight into psychopathic personality disorder helps to clarify what Bundy and characters like him really are, and that no pity or empathy be wasted on them: only the fear that they walk among us undetected until caught.

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    1. Richard - Thanks for your thoughts. Very well put! Bundy was so twisted that he said and I quote "I did not understand what made people want to be friends". Even as a child Bundy could not relate with the commonest human connection - friendship. As his poor step-father tried and tried to father him (including giving him his name) and include him in their family lives to no avail, he criticised the man for not making enough money as he was a hospital cook! What a blasted child!

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  8. Did the author write this with the understanding that given
    a chance even now Bundy would bash her head in and rape her repeatedly as she died and then continue to
    rape her decomposing corpse for days and most likely cut her head off and rape that as well until it all that remained
    was a skull? No wonder Bundy had no problem finding so many STUPID girls to snuff out and mutilate

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    1. I do not understand the point of this blogger to be honest! Attempting to convert an ugly watercolour poster to an oil on board masterpiece is never going to work! It is what it is - Ted Bundy was pure evil, best to be avoided! It really is as simple as that.

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  10. From what I've read, Bundy was a typical example of a high functioning psychopath (impossible to say for sure since his brain was never scanned). The thing about this kind of person is that the "good" is just a facade-there's no desire for normalcy or redemption underneath. Everything is calculated to produce an effect-there is little personality as such beneath the surface. People say serial murderers are complicated-they aren't really-not as people anyway. Their disorder is complicated-they themselves are empty.

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